14 more days to go..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

14 more days to go till my wedding.

Tak sempat nak buat persiapan sebab i have every other day oncall sampai raya T____T.

Alhamdulillah along dah start cuti, boleh tolong2 buatkan gubahan hantaran. Nak harapkan aku yang tangan kayu ni memang ke laut.

Alhamdulillah aku dah start solo call ICU. Tapi banyakk lagi yang kene belajar. Terutama ABG dan ventilator machine.

Banyak benda nak kene study. Study OT, study ICU dan most important thing study macam mana nak jadi isteri.

Tak tahu nak gambarkan perasaan macam mana. Excited sebab tak sabar nak kawen tapi takut mampukah jadi isteri yang baik..

Mohon Allah bantu dan baiki kelemahan diri..

Counting days..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

After 3rd discussion, finally my parents agreed with the idea for us to get married first, the reception will be later.

So here we go,

My wedding will be on Friday, 24th of July 2015 at 2.30pm. (insyaAllah)

The reception: 19th of September 2015.

May Allah ease everything. He is the one who plan for these and send him into my life out of sudden.
Ya Allah aku hambaMu yang sangat lemah.

Permudahkanlah supaya hati kami disatukan dibawah rahmat dan kasih sayangMU.

Ameen..

Angau

Tengok tulisan pun boleh jatuh cinta.

Kan?

Stres

Bismillah..

Lagi 113 hari lagi insyaAllah.. Slowly counting down.

Stress dan tak tahu nak mula dari mana.

Kat hospital stress dengan boss sebab asik kene marah. Yes bos im new and i know nothing about icu. Please spoon feed me.

Kat rumah stress sebab lama dah tak duduk borak2 dengan ibu ayah sebab jadual pack dan tight.

Lagi stress bulan 6 ni aku kene g kursus kat Pullman bangsar tapi aku kene keluarkan duit sendiri more than rm 1K. Memanglah boleh claim tapi agakla kan berapa lama claim aku nak lulus.

Entah la ek.

Allah tolong aku..

Adik bongsu

Kalau tanya adik aku..

Angah: atin, camne angah nak jadi isteri ni?

Atin: ala tengok je drama melayu. Tengok tutorial.

Kalaulah hidup berumahtangga itu semudah abc..

Thank You Allah

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

My dear blog, sorry for abandoned you for few times.

I have to many things to write and too many things to share. But to post it here i think it's too personal.

I just came back from Acheh on 24th of May. It was a great experience being there. I love the mosque, the Islamic air and environment. Everything is so calm and peaceful despite the tsunami which was happened on 2004.

Alhamdulillah. When Allah give them an obstacles, Allah show them the way out.

For me as well, everyone know my story before. How we ended as an enemy i think. It not goes well.
And i was in depressed state for almost 3 years, looking back at my past and asked Allah why You give me these kind of difficulties.

My heart was empty. And the most difficult time when the cycle came, no pray, no tahajud no doa will make my heart so far from Allah.

Slowly I regained back my spirit. Wake up early in the morning, pray hard to Allah, asked Allah to make myself more gratefull because what i have now is more than enough.

Alhamdulillah, thank you Allah.

Bismillah

Ya Allah, atas apa yang telah Engkau tetapkan untukku, natijah kesudahannya adalah dengan petunjukMu.